“The Lincoln Train” is a story of alternate history, but its deviation from the historical narrative is very slight. In the reality of the story, which takes place sometime after April 14, 1865, Lincoln didn’t die from John Wilkes Booth’s gunshot, but rather slipped into a coma from which he did not wake up. Subsequently, Andrew Johnson never replaces him as president, and instead, Secretary of State William Henry Seward governs the United States, and orders, among other things, to banish slave owners who had not emancipated their slaves—a type of internal population transfer. The story is told from the point of view of Clara, a seventeen-year-old girl who’s driven out of her town along with her mother.
This story is a wonderful demonstration of Maureen F. McHugh’s refined approach to science fiction and fantasy writing. McHugh’s stories go beyond the realia only in a minor fashion, which grants them the quality of something between a thought experiment and an illusion. Somehow the slight deviation turns into a type of crack through which we peek at our regular reality and perceive it in a way that is simultaneously vague and heightened, as it occurs at times when we run a high fever and everything is experienced both from up-close and also slightly from a distance, sharp and piercing but also blurry and opaque. What remains the same are the people (McHugh tends to focus on the women), and their difficulties and existential dilemmas, which McHugh excels in capturing in all of her stories, and in this story in particular. One or two paragraphs into the story and we are already standing on the dock inside Clara’s skin, smelling the scents, feeling the urgency, the tension and the dread, experiencing the confusion of a girl who is merely attempting to be a good person in a time and under circumstances in which it is no longer very clear what that means. Along with Clara, we wait for the Lincoln train to take us to an unknown future.
Soldiers of the G.A.R. stand alongside the tracks. They are General Dodge’s soldiers, keeping the tracks maintained for the Lincoln Train. If I stand right, the edges of my bonnet are like blinders and I can’t see the soldiers at all. It is a spring evening. At the house, the lilacs are blooming. My mother wears a sprig pinned to her dress under her cameo. I can smell it, even in the crush of these people all waiting for the train. I can smell the lilac, and the smell of too many people crowded together, and a faint taste of cinders on the air. I want to go home, but that house is not ours anymore. I smooth my black dress. On the train platform we are all in mourning.
The train will take us to St. Louis, from whence we will leave for the Oklahoma territories. They say we will walk, but I don’t know how my mother will do that. She has been poorly since the winter of ’62. I check my bag with our water and provisions.
“Julia Adelaide,” my mother says, “I think we should go home.”
“We’ve come to catch the train,” I say, very sharp.
I’m Clara, my sister Julia is eleven years older than me. Julia is married and living in Tennessee. My mother blinks and touches her sprig of lilac uncertainly. If I am not sharp with her, she will keep on it.
I wait. When I was younger I used to try to school my unruly self in Christian charity.
God sends us nothing we cannot bear. Now I only try to keep it from my face, try to keep my outer self disciplined. There is a feeling inside me, an anger, that I can’t even speak.
Something is being bent, like a bow, bending and bending and bending—
“When are we going home?” my mother says.
“Soon,” I say because it is easy.
But she won’t remember and in a moment she’ll ask again. And again and again, through this long, long train ride to St. Louis. I am trying to be a Christian daughter, and I remind myself that it is not her fault that the war turned her into an old woman, or that her mind is full of holes and everything new drains out. But it’s not my fault either. I don’t even try to curb my feelings and I know that they rise up to my face. The only way to be true is to be true from the inside and I am not. I am full of unchristian feelings. My mother’s infirmity is her trial, and it is also mine.
I wish I were someone else.
The train comes down the track, chuffing, coming slow. It is an old, badly used thing, but I can see that once it was a model of chaste and beautiful workmanship. Under the dust it is a dark claret in color. It is said that the engine was built to be used by President Lincoln, but since the assassination attempt he is too infirm to travel. People begin to push to the edge of the platform, hauling their bags and worldly goods. I don’t know how I will get our valise on. If Zeke could have come I could have at least insured that it was loaded on, but the Negroes are free now and they are not to help. The notice said no family Negroes could come to the station, although I see their faces here and there through the crowd.
The train stops outside the station to take on water.
“Is it your father?” my mother says diffidently. “Do you see him on the train?”
“No, Mother,” I say. “We are taking the train.”
“Are we going to see your father?” she asks.
It doesn’t matter what I say to her, she’ll forget it in a few minutes, but I cannot say yes to her. I cannot say that we will see my father even to give her a few moments of joy.
“Are we going to see your father?” she asks again.
“No,” I say.
“Where are we going?”
I have carefully explained it all to her and she cried every time I did. People are pushing down the platform toward the train, and I am trying to decide if I should move my valise toward the front of the platform. Why are they in such a hurry to get on the train? It is taking us all away.
“Where are we going? Julia Adelaide, you will answer me this moment,” my mother says, her voice too full of quaver to quite sound like her own.
“I’m Clara,” I say. “We’re going to St. Louis.”
“St. Louis,” she says. “We don’t need to go to St. Louis. We can’t get through the lines, Julia, and I . . . I am quite indisposed. Let’s go back home now, this is foolish.”
We cannot go back home. General Dodge has made it clear that if we did not show up at the train platform this morning and get our names checked off the list, he would arrest every man in town, and then he would shoot every tenth man. The town knows to believe him, General Dodge was put in charge of the trains into Washington, and he did the same thing then. He arrested men and held them and every time the train was fired upon he hanged a man.
There is a shout and I can only see the crowd moving like a wave, pouring off the edge of the platform. Everyone is afraid there will not be room. I grab the valise and I grab my mother’s arm and pull them both. The valise is so heavy that my fingers hurt, and the weight of our water and food is heavy on my arm. My mother is small and when I put her in bed at night she is all tiny like a child, but now she refuses to move, pulling against me and opening her mouth wide, her mouth pink inside and wet and open in a wail I can just barely hear over the shouting crowd. I don’t know if I should let go of the valise to pull her, and for a moment I think of letting go of her, letting someone else get her on the train and finding her later.
A man in the crowd shoves her hard from behind. His face is twisted in wrath. What is he so angry at? My mother falls into me, and the crowd pushes us. I am trying to hold on to the valise, but my gloves are slippery, and I can only hold with my right hand, with my left I am trying to hold up my mother. The crowd is pushing all around us, trying to push us toward the edge of the platform.
The train toots as if it were moving. There is shouting all around us. My mother is fallen against me, her face pressed against my bosom, turned up toward me. She is so frightened. Her face is pressed against me in improper intimacy, as if she were my child. My mother as my child. I am filled with revulsion and horror. The pressure against us begins to lessen. I still have a hold of the valise. We’ll be all right. Let the others push around, I’ll wait and get the valise on somehow. They won’t have us travel without anything.
My mother’s eyes close. Her wrinkled face looks up, the skin under her eyes making little pouches, as if it were a second, blind eyelid. Everything is so grotesque. I am having a spell. I wish I could be somewhere where I could get away and close the windows. I have had these spells since they told us that my father was dead, where everything is full of horror and strangeness.
The person behind me is crowding into my back and I want to tell them to give way, but I cannot. People around us are crying out. I cannot see anything but the people pushed against me. People are still pushing, but now they are not pushing toward the side of the platform but toward the front, where the train will be when we are allowed to board. Wait, I call out, but there’s no way for me to tell if I’ve really called out or not. I can’t hear anything until the train whistles. The train has moved? They brought the train into the station? I can’t tell, not without letting go of my mother and the valise. My mother is being pulled down into this mass. I feel her sliding against me. Her eyes are closed. She is a huge doll, limp in my arms. She is not even trying to hold herself up. She has given up to this moment.
I can’t hold on to my mother and the valise. So I let go of the valise.
Oh merciful God.
I do not know how I will get through this moment.
The crowd around me is a thing that presses me and pushes me up, pulls me down. I cannot breathe for the pressure. I see specks in front of my eyes, white sparks, too bright, like metal and like light. My feet aren’t under me. I am buoyed by the crowd and my feet are behind me. I am unable to stand, unable to fall. I think my mother is against me, but I can’t tell, and in this mass I don’t know how she can breathe.
I think I am going to die.
All the noise around me does not seem like noise anymore. It is something else, some element, like water or something surrounding me and overpowering me.
It is like that for a long time, until finally I have my feet under me, and I’m leaning against people. I feel myself sink, but I can’t stop myself. The platform is solid. My whole body feels bruised and roughly used.
My mother is not with me. My mother is a bundle of black on the ground, and I crawl to her. I wish I could say that as I crawl to her I feel concern for her condition, but at this moment I am no more than base animal nature and I crawl to her because she is mine and there is nothing else in the world I can identify as mine. Her skirt is rucked up so that her ankles and calves are showing. Her face is black. At first I think it something about her clothes, but it is her face, so full of blood that it is black.
People are still getting on the train, but there are people on the platform around us, left behind. And other things. A surprising number of shoes, all badly used. Wraps, too. Bags. Bundles and people. I try raising her arms above her head, to force breath into her lungs. Her arms are thin, but they don’t go the way I want them to. I read in the newspaper that when President Lincoln was shot, he stopped breathing, and his personal physician started him breathing again. But maybe the newspaper was wrong, or maybe it is more complicated than I understand, or maybe it doesn’t always work. She doesn’t breathe.
I sit on the platform and try to think of what to do next. My head is empty of useful thoughts. Empty of prayers.
It’s a soldier of the G.A.R.
“Yes sir?” I say. It is difficult to look up at him, to look up into the sun.
He hunkers down but does not touch her. At least he doesn’t touch her. “Do you have anyone staying behind?”
Like cousins or something? Someone who is not “recalcitrant” in their handling of their Negroes? “Not in town,” I say.
“Did she worship?” he asks, in his northern way.
“Yes sir,” I say, “she did. She was a Methodist, and you should contact the preacher. The Reverend Robert Ewald, sir.”
“I’ll see to it, ma’am. Now you’ll have to get on the train.”
“And leave her?” I say.
“Yes ma’am, the train will be leaving. I’m sorry ma’am.”
“But I can’t,” I say.
He takes my elbow and helps me stand. And I let him.
“We are not really recalcitrant,” I say. “Where were Zeke and Rachel supposed to go? Were we supposed to throw them out?”
He helps me climb onto the train. People stare at me as I get on, and I realize I must be all in disarray. I stand under all their gazes, trying to get my bonnet on straight and smoothing my dress. I do not know what to do with my eyes or hands.
There are no seats. Will I have to stand until St. Louis? I grab a seat back to hold myself up. It is suddenly warm and everything is distant and I think I am about to faint. My stomach turns. I breathe through my mouth, not even sure that I am holding on to the seat back.
But I don’t fall, thank Jesus.
“It’s not Lincoln,” someone is saying, a man’s voice, rich and baritone, and I fasten on the words as a lifeline, drawing myself back to the train car, to the world. “It’s Seward. Lincoln no longer has the capacity to govern.”
The train smells of bodies and warm sweaty wool. It is a smell that threatens to undo me, so I must concentrate on breathing through my mouth. I breathe in little pants, like a dog.
The heat lies against my skin. It is airless.
“Of course Lincoln can no longer govern, but that damned actor made him a saint when he shot him” says a second voice, “And now no one dare oppose him. It doesn’t matter if his policies make sense or not.”
“You’re wrong,” says the first. “Seward is governing through him. Lincoln is an imbecile. He can’t govern, look at the way he handled the war.”
The second snorts. “He won.”
“No,” says the first, “we lost, there is a difference, sir. We lost even though the north never could find a competent general.” I know the type of the first one. He’s the one who thinks he is brilliant, who always knew what President Davis should have done. If they are looking for a recalcitrant southerner, they have found one.
“Grant was a drinker,” the first one says. “It was his subordinates. They’d been through years of war. They knew what to do.”
It is so hot on the train. I wonder how long until the train leaves.
I wonder if the Reverend will write my sister in Tennessee and tell her about our mother.
I wish the train were going east toward Tennessee instead of north and west toward St. Louis.
My valise. All I have. It is on the platform. I turn and go to the door. It is closed and I try the handle, but it is too stiff for me. I look around for help.
“It’s locked,” says a woman in gray. She doesn’t look unkind.
“My things, I left them on the platform,” I say.
“Oh, honey,” she says, “they aren’t going to let you back out there. They don’t let anyone off the train.”
I look out the window, but I can’t see the valise. I can see some of the soldiers, so I beat on the window. One of them glances up at me, frowning, but then he ignores me.
The train blows that it is going to leave, and I beat harder on the glass. If I could shatter that glass. They don’t understand, they would help me if they understood. The train lurches and I stagger. It is out there, somewhere, on that platform. Clothes for my mother and me, blankets, things we will need. Things I will need.
The train pulls out of the station and I feel so terrible I sit down on the floor in all the dirt from people’s feet, and sob.
The train creeps slowly at first, but then picks up speed. The clack-clack clack-clack rocks me. It is improper, but I allow it to rock me. I am in others’ hands now and there is nothing to do but be patient. I am good at that. So it has been all my life. I have tried to be dutiful, butSomething in me has not bent right, and I have never been able to maintain a Christian frame of mind, but like a chicken in a yard, I have always kept my eyes on the small things. I have tended to what was in front of me, first the house, then my mother. When we could not get sugar, I learned to cook with molasses and honey. Now I sit and let my mind go empty and let the train rock me.
“Child,” someone says. “Child.”
The woman in gray has been trying to get my attention for a while, but I have been sitting and letting myself be rocked.
“Child,” she says again, “would you like some water?”
Yes, I realize, I would. She has a jar and she gives it to me to sip out of. “Thank you,” I say. “We brought water, but we lost it in the crush on the platform.”
“You have someone with you?” she asks. “My mother,” I say, and start crying again. “She is old, and there was such a press on the platform, and she fell and was trampled.”
“What’s your name,” the woman says.
“Clara Corbett,” I say.
“I’m Elizabeth Loudon,” the woman says. “And you are welcome to travel with me.”
There is something about her, a simple pleasantness, that makes me trust her. She is a small woman, with a small nose and eyes as gray as her dress. She is younger than I first thought, maybe only in her thirties? “How old are you? Do you have family?” she asks.
“I am seventeen. I have a sister, Julia. But she doesn’t live in Mississippi anymore.”
“Where does she live?” the woman asks.
“In Beech Bluff, near Jackson, Tennessee.”
She shakes her head. “I don’t know it. Is it good country?”
“I think so,” I say. “In her letters it sounds like good country. But I haven’t seen her for seven years.” Of course no one could travel during the war. She has three children in Tennessee. My sister is twenty-eight, almost as old as this woman. It is hard to imagine.
“Were you close?” she asks.
I don’t know that we were close. But she is my sister. She is all I have, now. I hope that the Reverend will write her about my mother, but I don’t know that he knows where she is. I will have to write her. She will think I should have taken better care.
“Are you traveling alone?”
“My companion is a few seats farther in front. He and I could not find seats together.”
Her companion is a man? Not her husband, maybe her brother? But she would say her brother if that’s who she meant. A woman traveling with a man. An adventuress, I think.
There are stories of women traveling, hoping to find unattached girls like myself. They befriend the young girls and then deliver them to the brothels of New Orleans.
For a moment Elizabeth takes on a sinister cast. But this is a train full of recalcitrant southerners, there is no opportunity to kidnap anyone. Elizabeth is like me, a woman who has lost her home.
It takes the rest of the day and a night to get to St. Louis, and Elizabeth and I talk. It’s as if we talk in ciphers; instead of talking about home, we talk about gardening, and I can see the garden at home, lazy with bees. She is a quilter. I don’t quilt, but I used to do petit pointe, so we can talk sewing and about how hard it has been to get colors. And we talk about mending and making do, we have all been making do for so long.
When it gets dark, since I have no seat, I stay where I am sitting by the door of the train. I am so tired, but in the darkness all I can think of is my mother’s face in the crowd and her hopeless open mouth. I don’t want to think of my mother, but I am in a delirium of fatigue, surrounded by the dark and the rumble of the train and the distant murmur of voices. I sleep sitting by the door of the train, fitful and rocked. I have dreams like fever dreams. In my dream I am in a strange house, but it is supposed to be my own house, but nothing is where it should be, and I begin to believe that I have actually entered a stranger’s house, and that they’ll return and find me here. When I wake up and go back to sleep, I am back in this strange house, looking through things.
I wake before dawn, only a little rested. My shoulders and hips and back all ache from the way I am leaning, but I have no energy to get up. I have no energy to do anything but endure. Elizabeth nods, sometimes awake, sometimes asleep, but neither of us speak.
Finally the train slows. We come in through a town, but the town seems to go on and on. It must be St. Louis. We stop and sit. The sun comes up and heats the car like an oven. There is no movement of the air. There are so many buildings in St. Louis, and so many of them are tall, two stories, that I wonder if they cut off the wind and that is why it’s so still. But finally the train lurches and we crawl into the station.
I am one of the first off the train by virtue of my position near the door. A soldier unlocks it and shouts for all of us to disembark, but he need not have bothered for there is a rush. I am borne ahead at its beginning, but I can stop at the back of the platform. I am afraid that I have lost Elizabeth, but I see her in the crowd. She is on the arm of a younger man in a bowler. There is something about his air that marks him as different—he is sprightly and apparently fresh even after the long ride.
I almost let them pass, but the prospect of being alone makes me reach out and touch her shoulder.
“There you are,” she says.
We join a queue of people waiting to use a trench. The smell is appalling, ammonia acrid and eye-watering. There is a wall to separate the men from the women, but the women are all together. I crouch, trying not to notice anyone and trying to keep my skirts out of the filth. It is so awful. It’s worse than anything. I feel so awful.
What if my mother were here? What would I do? I think maybe it was better, maybe it was God’s hand. But that is an awful thought, too.
“Child,” Elizabeth says when I come out, “what’s the matter?”
“It’s so awful,” I say. I shouldn’t cry, but I just want to be home and clean. I want to go to bed and sleep.
She offers me a biscuit.
“You should save your food,”
I say. “Don’t worry,” Elizabeth says, “We have enough.”
I shouldn’t accept it, but I am so hungry. And when I have a little to eat, I feel a little better.
I try to imagine what the fort will be like where we will be going. Will we have a place to sleep, or will it be barracks? Or worse yet, tents? Although after the night I spent on the train I can’t imagine anything that could be worse. I imagine if I have to stay awhile in a tent then I’ll make the best of it.
“I think this being in limbo is perhaps worse than anything we can expect at the end,” I say to Elizabeth. She smiles.
She introduces her companion, Michael. He is enough like her to be her brother, but I don’t think that they are. I am resolved not to ask; if they want to tell me they can.
We are standing together, not saying anything, when there is some commotion farther up the platform. It is a woman. Her black dress is like smoke. She is running down the platform, coming toward us. There are all of these people and yet it is as if there is no obstacle for her. “NO NO NO NO, DON’T TOUCH ME! FILTHY HANDS! DON’T LET THEM TOUCH YOU! DON’T GET ON THE TRAINS!”
People are getting out of her way. Where are the soldiers? The fabric of her dress is so threadbare it is rotten and torn at the seams. Her skirt is greasy black and matted and stained. Her face is so thin. “ANIMALS! THERE IS NOTHING OUT THERE! PEOPLE DON’T HAVE FOOD! THERE IS NOTHING THERE BUT INDIANS! THEY SENT US OUT TO SETTLE BUT THERE WAS NOTHING THERE!” I expect she will run past me, but she grabs my arm and stops and looks into my face. She has light eyes, pale eyes in her dark face. She is mad.
“WE WERE ALL STARVING, SO WE WENT TO THE FORT BUT THE FORT HAD NOTHING. YOU WILL ALL STARVE, THE WAY THEY ARE STARVING THE INDIANS! THEY WILL LET US ALL DIE! THEY DON’T CARE!” She is screaming in my face, and her spittle sprays me, warm as her breath. Her hand is all tendons and twigs, but she’s so strong I can’t escape.
The soldiers grab her and yank her away from me. My arm aches where she was holding it. I can’t stand up.
Elizabeth pulls me upright. “Stay close to me,” she says and starts to walk the other way down the platform. People are looking up, following the screaming woman.
She pulls me along with her. I keep thinking of the woman’s hand and wrist turned black with grime. I remember my mother’s face was black when she lay on the platform. Black like something rotted.
“Here,” Elizabeth says at an old door, painted green but now weathered. The door opens and we pass inside.
“What?” I say. My eyes are accustomed to the morning brightness and I can’t see.
“Her name is Clara,” Elizabeth says. “She has people in Tennessee.”
“Come with me,” says another woman. She sounds older. “Step this way. Where are her things?”
I am being kidnapped. Oh merciful God, I’ll die. I let out a moan.
“Her things were lost, her mother was killed in a crush on the platform.”
The woman in the dark clucks sympathetically. “Poor dear. Does Michael have his passenger yet?”
“In a moment,” Elizabeth says. “We were lucky for the commotion.”
I am beginning to be able to see. It is a storage room, full of abandoned things. The woman holding my arm is older. There are some broken chairs and a stool. She sits me in the chair. Is Elizabeth some kind of adventuress?
“Who are you?” I ask. “We are friends,” Elizabeth says. “We will help you get to your sister.”
I don’t believe them. I will end up in New Orleans. Elizabeth is some kind of adventuress.
After a moment the door opens and this time it is Michael with a young man. “This is Andrew,” he says.
A man? What do they want with a man? That is what stops me from saying, “Run!”
Andrew is blinded by the change in light, and I can see the astonishment working on his face, the way it must be working on mine. “What is this?” he asks.
“You are with Friends,” Michael says, and maybe he has said it differently than Elizabeth, or maybe it is just that this time I have had the wit to hear it.
“Quakers?” Andrew says. “Abolitionists?”
Michael smiles. I can see his teeth white in the darkness. “Just Friends,” he says.
Abolitionists. Crazy people who steal slaves to set them free. Have they come to kidnap us? We are recalcitrant southerners, I have never heard of Quakers seeking revenge, but everyone knows the Abolitionists are crazy and they are liable to do anything.
“We’ll have to wait here until they begin to move people out, it will be evening before we can leave,” says the older woman. I am so frightened; I just want to be home. Maybe I should try to break free and run out to the platform. There are northern soldiers out there. Would they protect me? And then what, go to a fort in Oklahoma?
The older woman asks Michael how they could get past the guards so early and he tells her about the madwoman. A “refugee,” he calls her.
“They’ll just take her back,” Elizabeth says, sighing.
Take her back—do they mean that she really came from Oklahoma? They talk about how bad it will be this winter. Michael says there are Wisconsin Indians resettled down there, but they’ve got no food, and they’ve been starving on government handouts for a couple years. Now there will be more people. They’re not prepared for winter.
There can’t have been much handout during the war. It was hard enough to feed the armies.
They explain to Andrew and to me that we will sneak out of the train station this evening, after dark. We will spend a day with a Quaker family in St. Louis, and then they will send us on to the next family. And so we will be passed hand to hand, like a bucket in a brigade, until we get to our families.
They call it the underground railroad.
But we are slave owners. “Wrong is wrong,” says Elizabeth. “Some of us can’t stand and watch people starve.”
“But only two out of the whole train,” Andrew says.
The old woman nods. “It isn’t right.”
Elizabeth picked me because my mother died. If my mother had not died, I would be out there, on my way to starve with the rest of them.
I can’t help it, but I start to cry. I should not profit from my mother’s death. I should have kept her safe.
“Hush, now,” says Elizabeth. “Hush, you’ll be okay.”
“It’s not right,” I whisper. I’m trying not to be loud, we mustn’t be discovered.
“You shouldn’t have picked me,” I say. But I am crying so hard I don’t think they can understand me. Elizabeth strokes my hair and wipes my face. It may be the last time someone will do these things for me. My sister has three children of her own, and she won’t need another child. I’ll have to work hard to make up my keep.
There are blankets there and we lie down on the hard floor, all except Michael, who sits in a chair and sleeps. I sleep this time with fewer dreams. But when I wake up, although I can’t remember what they were, I have the feeling that I have been dreaming restless dreams. The stars are bright when we finally creep out of the station. A night full of stars. The stars will be the same in Tennessee. The platform is empty, the train and the people are gone. The Lincoln Train has gone back south while we slept, to take more people out of Mississippi.
“Will you come back and save more people?” I ask Elizabeth.
The stars are a banner behind her quiet head. “We will save what we can,” she says.
It isn’t fair that I was picked. “I want to help,” I tell her.
She is silent for a moment. “We only work with our own,” she says. There is something in her voice that has not been there before. A sharpness.
“What do you mean?” I ask.
“There are no slavers in our ranks,” she says and her voice is cold.
I feel as if I have had a fever; tired, but clear of mind. I have never walked so far and not walked beyond a town. The streets of St. Louis are empty. There are few lights. Far off a woman is singing, and her voice is clear and carries easily in the night. A beautiful voice.
“Elizabeth,” Michael says, “she is just a girl.”
“She needs to know,” Elizabeth says.
“Why did you save me then?” I ask.
“One does not fight evil with evil,” Elizabeth says.
“I’m not evil!” I say.
But no one answers.
*From “About Mothers and Other Monsters”, Copyright © 2005 by Maureen F. McHugh. All rights reserved.
*Published by arrangement with Small Beer Press.
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